Crimson tides befall a withering sea. I lay struggling amongst the crashing waves. Yet you don't see me.
It's ever so hard to explain actions, decisions and emotions sometimes. It's so difficult that sometimes it makes you want to cry. There are too many things that can'tbe explained by words or rationality, while for other things, you never seem to accept my explanation. Sometimes I can't explain things to myself either.
Perhaps this is the immaturity you speak about, the inability to differentiate what is right and wrong. But I would like to tell you straight up that more often than not, situations and decisions cannot be categorised as right or wrong. Who am I to say that I am right and who are you to say that I am wrong? If you can't understand that no one, especially me, wanted things to become the way they were and the way they are, all I can say is that you are not even trying. People don't need a RATIONAL reason to be sad, they don't need a RATIONAL reason to cry, neither do they need a RATIONAL reason to end their lives. Just like I don't need a socially accepted reason to be the way I was.
Neither do I need you to empathise with my situation. But when you can't do that, I can't go back. I don't need you to understand, I need so much more than that, I need you to empathise. I need to know that I can trust you.