Yesterday was like a dream, filled with mixed feelings.
It was like a visit to the past, a bittersweet reminder of how great it feels to dance, to perform, to express.
The pre-performance anxiety, the ongoing adrenaline pump and the pre-results worry. All that was present is now past.
Putting on makeup for our lovely dancers was almost like putting on an amulet or perhaps even adding a little confidence boost. Most people might think that the moment you paint on those colours on your face, it's the moment of transformation, when you go from the ordinary self to extraordinary self. But no, this transformation took place a long long time ago, back when you had the courage to take the first step to an enchanting melody. It really isn't easy. You need courage to try what others can't, you need perseverence to continue when you fall and you need passion to inject life into a monotonous routine of repeatition. From there, you discover and rediscover, explore and re-explore, assure and reassure yourself that the courage you summoned from the start, was the right decision.
Every SYF is different for every batch is unique.
Last SYF, we ended with the start of something new. An escapade of memories that started at the finishing line and still lives on today.
This SYF, the end brings us back to the beginning. A rediscovery, a re-exploration and a reassurance that all accomplishments are well-deserved. No regrets. And every setback contributes to a greater character. The fun-loving and playful kids are still as frolicsome as ever, still living in their whimsical world of merryment. But we all know that they have matured and become better than ever and even better yet, they haven't forgotten the self they have started out with. They made the ordinary self into the extraordinary self.
Lovely.
And when I woke up this morning, I can't quite remember how I left the house, how I unlocked the door again, how I washed up and lay on the bed till this morning came. Because I was bathing in the endless cycle of this wonderful start to end.