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Friday, March 24

If I were to comment on my mood now, it would probably be a marked improvement from the previous few days. C: I guess people around you make a BIG BIG BIG difference. My mood actually fluctuates along with theirs. It's really contagious. So next time you see one of us down, you'll probably find the whole gang feeling shitty.

Things I cannot resist laughing/smiling at:
1. My expert whacking based on the concept of moments.
2. Silly antics of Florence and Rachel, eg: the ti-ti-ti game.
3. Ah ma walking into the pole.
4. Tiff-funny and her incompleted dare to untuck wang's shirt.
5. Battling with Karen whenever she hits me and squirts water at me. (I never quite win before. Shucks!)
6. Mich, her hot updates and her bashfulness. :P
7. King Harry coming home.
8. Tam the ikan bilis gradually adapting and finding another great class.
9. Recalling Chen Wei's imitation of Moulin Rouge songs and making a medley with all our other songs/lines. -----> "Suddenly~ Oman, the sky is so blue~ It's funneh...this feeling in insideee~"
10. Imagining Shar's crazy acts in response to our stupid self-entertainmening spree.
11. Thinking about Choon's "This is NJ." whenever we go wild. Oh wells, HECK, as always! C:
12. Shengyu and Wang's 天衣无缝 pairing in comic relief.
13. All my trademark "DAMNs" -- DAMN cool lar, DAMN cute, DAMN weird... C:

Upcoming Events:
1. Enrichment Week: Cycling at Pulau Ubin! Baking! Cheerleading! ......
2. 20th April: Ballet Exam!
3. 21st April: NJC Cultural Night performance -- Aristal!
4. 20th May: NJC Funtasia!

I'm feeling MUCH better now, with thanks to those who tagged and showed me that no matter what happens, I can always proudly say that I'm not alone. I love you dearies! (Although I don't know all of you~)

.i.WaNt.tO.fLy.wHeN.i.DaNcE. |11:45:00 PM|

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Tuesday, March 21

These days go by with constant ups and downs.

It's strange how we can be so depressed and yet at points of time find some way to laugh out loud. That looming heavy mist of angst and despondency weighs down on us that sometimes it's difficult to breathe. You just have this need to sigh or break down and weep. And even if you do, there's still this hollow feeling inside yet every single ounce seem to be pressing down on your heart. Nothing can lift you up.

It's so hard. Just so hard to see people around you in gloom and still remain positive. And most of the time, when we are cast down, we are also blinded towards how others are feeling. You have to know, you're not the only one who's in low spirits.

Caught in the middle of a crowd, tearing. YET NO ONE noticed.

How is it that life has become this dark and melancholic? So much so that I don't see the difference between day and night.

I don't mean to be this downhearted. But this depression everyone is facing brings with it the power to snatch away one's right to be free and I question myself everytime when I smile or laugh -- how real is this to me?

Freaking sorrow.

寻找着我要的幸福。
走遍了天涯海角，才发现原来幸福从一开始就在这里。
没有珍惜，才会失去。

I miss you so.

.i.WaNt.tO.fLy.wHeN.i.DaNcE. |11:02:00 PM|

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